Operation **Reclaim** Loveland

Anxiety by Protyus A. Gendher

Anxiety 
I never want to be what stresses you out 
Fills you up with anxiety and doubt 
That thing in your day that you worry about 
The voice in your head that won’t stop shouting 
Don’t let it be me, that you second think 
Tossing, turning, losing sleep 
Hovering always at the brink 
Wherein tortured consciousness you shrink 
Don’t let me be where you go dead 
Diminished self over something said 
Endless uncertainty fed 
By constant dread in your head 
Don’t you know that human connection shouldn’t cost you this? 
All this lover’s anxiety might undermine a touch or a kiss 
I don’t want to be the destruction that binds you 
I want to find you  
To love you freely 
Not some zeal dream 
But in the place of jubilation I see your worry 
And that inhibits every part of me 
And so, we slip into this cycle, see 
Where you doubt me, and I try harder to please. 
And I don’t know how I can assure you 
Need I remind you that you are impure too? 
But none of that should even matter 
If we commit to the matter of loving 
But instead, in our heads and between us 
All this clatter 
Only leaves us shoving 
Against each other as imagined contenders 
Instead of emissaries, defenders 
And all we do is create this expanse 
And we go through the motion committed to a trance 
And all this elaborate spiderweb dance 
Means we’re not in this together 
Just dancing, never knowing whether 
The other could ever be met 
Only wondering if they could be kept 

Interested? Go back to the beginning! Start Here