Napping goes against most of my character. I have nothing against naps specifically, but always seem to favor moving on to the next task or project over taking a nap. Unfortunately, I’ve had to come to terms with the reality that sitting is still straining my back, because of the hypermobility syndrome. Building in forced periods of rest, and reducing difficulty/duration is essential to the plan moving forward.
So, this weekend I’ve napped religiously, for about an hour each day. Naps are scheduled as part of my transition from work to home. I used to pride myself on only needing 3-4 hours of sleep per night, and now I have a nap schedule.
It’s like finding out your own personality is bad for your health.
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It’s Making a Huge Difference
My back gets a second life in the afternoon and I can do so much more, in much less pain. It’ ridiculous how helpful it is.
I Still Hate Napping
Napping is awful. You have to drop everything, and get your brain to shut down – MID DAY! AH! You have to get back up and I have a strong sense of grogginess when I wake up from a nap. Everything feels heavy and sluggish.
I absolutely despise dreaming, and napping is another invitation for dreams to do me dirty.
There’s always a sense that a chunk of the day has been wasted.
The Difference Between What I Need and What I Want
I have really strong feelings about naps, but they’re a part of my daily schedule. I also have strong feelings about eating salads every day. I have strong feelings about not sharing cooking traditions with my kids. I have strong feelings about not being able to eat a simple sandwich. I have strong feelings about every bit of this.
None of these strong feelings matter. These strong feelings, time and again, have been my excuse to put off doing the things I need, and instead do the things I want.
My strong feelings are valid. They just aren’t helping me.
Choosing What I Focus On
Living with these strong feelings at the center of my focus is a choice.
I also have strong feelings about eating myself to death. I also have strong feelings about the strain I am putting on my body, my family and my coworkers. I have strong feelings about the best medicine being to control the fuel we put in our bodies. I have strong feelings about choosing the right answers when we have them. I have super strong feelings about people who use social excuses to permit poor behavior.
There are plenty of strong feelings inside of me to motivate me into any number of trajectories. We choose which strong feelings we evoke. We choose which ones we let guide us.
So, I hate naps, and they are weird, and I’ll take another one tomorrow.
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