Making Magic Real
SCIENTIFIC MAGIC: How “I Was Magic” Predicted the Emergence of the Site‑as‑Self
There are moments in a creative life when a song stops being a song and becomes a message from a future version of yourself — a breadcrumb left by a self who already knew what you would one day be able to name.
For me, that song was “I Was Magic.”
At the time, I thought I was writing about captivity, longing, and the strange shimmer of selfhood that survived the lockdown years. I thought I was documenting a feeling.
I didn’t realize I was documenting a mechanism.
I didn’t realize I was describing the exact phenomenon that would later become the backbone of Relational Field Theory.
I didn’t realize I was writing about magic — not as superstition, but as a natural human capacity we had never properly understood.
And now, years later, the theory has caught up to the song.
This is the story of how magic became legitimate — not by abandoning science, but by expanding it.
1. Magic Was Never Supernatural — It Was Pre‑Cognitive Field Perception
When people talk about “magic,” they’re usually describing a moment when:
- something arrives fully formed
- intuition hits with impossible clarity
- emotion floods before thought
- meaning emerges faster than language
- the world feels connected in a way that defies linear logic
For centuries, we’ve had only two explanations:
1. It’s supernatural
or
2. It’s delusion
Both are wrong.
What we now understand is that these moments are the site‑as‑self detecting the relational field before cognition can interpret it.
Magic is not a violation of physics.
Magic is early pattern detection.
Magic is the body registering distributed agency.
Magic is the self perceiving the field.
This is not mysticism.
This is evolutionary cognition.
2. The Site‑as‑Self: The Human Interface for Field Contact
The “site‑as‑self” is the internal world — the emotional, somatic, intuitive landscape — that evolved long before language, institutions, or rational frameworks.
It is:
- the receiver
- the sensor
- the interface
- the instrument
When the field shifts, the site feels it.
When coherence emerges, the site shakes.
When meaning arrives, the site floods.
This is why magic feels emotional.
This is why magic feels overwhelming.
This is why magic feels true.
The site is telling you:
“Something is happening in the field.”
3. The Shared Human Field: Where Agency Lives
Agency is not limited to individuals.
Agency emerges in:
- relationships
- collectives
- environments
- creative ecosystems
- emotional networks
- cultural memory
This is the shared human field — the relational space where meaning is formed, transmitted, and perceived.
When the field organizes itself, we feel it.
When the field remembers something, we feel it.
When the field wants to be heard, we feel it.
This is why the emotional surge comes before the insight.
The field speaks in sensation first.
4. “I Was Magic” Was a Field Event Before It Was a Song
When I wrote “I Was Magic,” I thought I was describing a personal experience.
But listening now, with the theory in hand, I can see what was actually happening:
The song was a field‑seed.
It carried:
- the memory of relational cognition
- the ache of disconnection
- the shimmer of the site‑as‑self
- the longing for coherence
- the truth that magic was real all along
The chorus wasn’t metaphor.
It was data.
It was the field saying:
“You were perceiving me before you knew what I was.”
5. Sciencing Magic Into Legitimacy
The breakthrough wasn’t “magic is real.”
The breakthrough was:
Magic is the subjective experience of field contact.
Field contact is a natural cognitive event.
Therefore, magic is legitimate.
Not supernatural.
Not irrational.
Not delusional.
Legitimate.
Because it has:
- a mechanism
- a somatic signature
- an evolutionary purpose
- a relational function
- a repeatable pattern
Magic is what it feels like when the site‑as‑self perceives the shared human field.
That’s the science.
6. Why This Matters
Because this reframes:
- intuition
- creativity
- ritual
- inspiration
- synchronicity
- emotional surges
- collective resonance
as natural human capacities, not fringe experiences.
It restores dignity to forms of knowing that institutions have suppressed.
It reconnects us to the parts of ourselves that were never broken — only unnamed.
It gives us a language for the moments that feel too big, too fast, too true to be coincidence.
It lets us say:
“I was magic”
and mean
“I was perceiving the field.”
7. The Song Was the Portal All Along
The next time I hear “I Was Magic,” I won’t hear nostalgia.
I’ll hear a prophecy.
I’ll hear the moment the field tried to tell me something I wasn’t yet ready to understand.
I’ll hear the first articulation of a truth that would take years to name:
Magic is real.
Not because the supernatural exists,
but because the relational field does.
And the site‑as‑self is how we touch it.
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